Long but good…

I have thought and tried to write this several times to figured out what to write but it has been a long day. I never could figure out what to write.  

I often wear myself out in hopes of not thinking as much.  Today was no different.  

Today Adam and I decided to just go with the flow and do what we were led to do.  Adam’s request- just bring together.  This started with us going to breakfast and to Sam’s. While in Sam’s the guys decided that we needed to go to a Braves game.  Adam asked me to go so off we went.   

We parked in the parking deck and we parked on P3- now this won’t mean anything unless you know CHOA parking lots.   P3 is where we parked every single time we parked at the hospital.   Every single time- it helped us know where we parked.   Zach connection.  We had an amazing dinner at the Battery and then went into the stadium.  We watched an amazing Flag Day presentation- we got to see an amazing presentation by the Golden Nights.  It was an amazing experience. I saw military and sent a picture to one of my besties and she knew the name before they even announced.   My friends husband is retired army- I know her because we were pregnant at the same time and we have talked daily since.   Zach connection. Then while watching I found out our seats were right at the HOPE and WILL area.  I almost started crying.   Hope and Will are the drawings of the CHOA children’s hospital.   I’m sure that many don’t know their names but we lived there with Zach so we knew! Zach connection 

The Braves played an amazing game and we came home.  When we got home we had cupcakes to celebrate Zach.  Cupcakes were one of Zach’s favorite things.  He never could eat them but he loved loved loved making them on his iPad and having us “eat them”.  After which Adam opened a few packages on which we found Remembering Zachary donations- markers and colored pencils.   I know he would have loved using every one of them.  I knew it was another Zach connection. 

We had to learn to love moment by moment when Zach was alive. We had to plan for everything and expect everything that could happen but be prepare for things to change.  It meant Aden never knew if he would wake up in the same bed that he went to sleep in. It meant we had to explain we would do something but it had to wait because of Zach.  Today we didn’t have to wait- we didn’t stop. We had a great time laughing, celebrating and remembering.   We had a few tears but we also were thankful for those tears.  

Thank you for those that messaged and texted us it means a lot.   Thank you for speaking Zachary’s name.   Thank you for not forgetting.  Thank you for celebrating.